Mood: celebratory
Now Playing: If I saw You in Heaven (?)-Eric Clapton
Topic: Life and Death
HHHHMMMMMMMMMM........
Where to start.
I think that as a rule we are conditioned to whine about things because when we do, people come to our aid and offer solutions. Whether we take them up on it or not is another story, but for the most part we like to have something to fix. I mentioned in my blog this morning that I was frustated by the financial squeeze that I feel today while knowing that there is money owed to me that is just days out of reach. I am far from destitute, and while I have a list of wants, it is so material that it seems ridiculous to even talk about it. What is my health worth, or my family, or my friends?
In typical Universe fashion, I was reminded what was really important today. I already knew that I was going to a pot-luck for a friend of mine who would have been celebrating his second wedding anniversary today. His wife is the woman who lost a short but intense battle with ovarian cancer this summer. I did NOT know that today was going to be the day that another friend of mine would lose her husband who has been struggling through Leukemia treatment for three years now. (We did know that it was going to be soon). I know that at this point passing was a blessing. It doesn't make it any easier for those who were with him and fought so hard to keep it from happening.
I knew Eddie for about three years before he found out he had cancer. He always called me Moo-chellie. He would come into the restaurant to wait for Linda to get done, and have a beer at the bar. When the show "Crossing Over" came out, he would come and discuss it with me. When I found out he had leukemia I did a reiki mandala for him. When I found out about the bone marrow transplant, I had dreams about him. I told them about what I saw, but I never really got a response, so I let it go. I still remember the dreams. I know that I will hear from him from the other side. He did what he had to do. I know that I will take from this experience, and use it in future situations, and I know that I will be hearing from Eddie now that he has "crossed over" as well.
Stay Tuned!
Posted by mandalafly
at 10:34 PM PDT
Updated: Tuesday, October 11, 2005 10:36 PM PDT