Mood:
quizzicalNow Playing: Wipe Out-the Surfaris
Topic: WHAT?
SO, the night before last (Sunday night, or actually Monday morning) I had this very odd, and semi-ominous dream, that probably should have creeped me out more than it did, but I got the feeling that the only reason that it was ominous was so that I take it seriously. I remember it in great detail and felt that it had more to do with overcoming my own fears, than with anything actually physically happening like this:
It looks like about sundown, and I am on the coast. The sky is a very peachy and pinky with blues and puprples just starting to come in. I look at the west and there is a charcoal colored spot of cloud where the sun is, and a charcoal cloudy ring around it. I look at it and realize there are rainbows the clouds, and I remember a woman named Great Bear who had smoky quartz hearts with rainbows in them and always said "even in darkness, there are rainbows." I am astonished, and I look the other direction and realize there is another of these formations in the sky to the East. I am not afraid, I call them black hole suns, and I realize they are full of light.
I realize that I am in Florence. OR, and I have a house there with Babboo. I also realize that we live close to my "babys' daddy" and his wife, and I am over at their house picking up Thing 1 when I look outside and see water coming up from the ocean and flooding the streets. I think to myself " I am not going to get back to my house with all of this water coming up like this. There are people trying to move through the streets, but the water is up to their waists. I am watching out the front door which is a typical metal front door with glass in it, and the water comes up and is pressing on the door, but not getting through it. Then I see a fist-first it is large and like an illusion, but then it is a person's hand knocking on the door, and then both hands are rapping on the glass. I am aghast-the water is green in color and looks more lake colored than ocean, but there are the hands-of a person-who if I open the door to save, I risk flooding the house, and losing our lives, but at the same time-is still alive. I am brought to consciousness and out of having to watch what happens next, and I quickly feel like this is one of my ridiculous fears of moving up to the next level...and I wonder if when opportunity to respond knocks, why I am afraid it will put me in a catch 22 situation. This would NOT be the first time, and I can see why I would have this fear, but I also need to realize that this is not the last time-this is THIS TIME and I am different than the last time. It is my greatest wish that I am able to save the person, and keep the house from flooding at the same time.
For whatever reason,I think there is a part of me that feels as though while I want to open the door to the opportunity, I wonder if maybe I might be overwhelmed by the responsibility. Then there is the part that just said "YOU SHOULD BE SO LUCKY!!!" Fear of sucess-would I be able to handle it-or am I "too busy" already. Try Me!
If you could open the door to a possibility...what would you make possible?
