Mood: special
Now Playing: Help On The Way-Grateful Dead
Topic: OM
Well kids...another Full Moon-this one in SCORPIO and I'm telling you -the deep dark secrets are coming out to haunt some folks! Scorpio-as you may well know by now is about TRANSFORMATION, and in order to make room for the new, you really need to kick the OLD skeletons out. I have seen some frantic folk this week..and I feel that I have been able to comfort, but I have my own demons too, and I have been having a bit of a face off. Faith vs Fear.
My recurring theme is always MONEY (or lack thereof), and I am feeling the squeeze right now, however I have seen the way to break the pattern, and I am taking the steps, so I really can't complain (but sometimes I still do!). There is still food in the cupboard and a roof over our heads. I actually had a dream last night that the Extreme Makeover team came and made me a new house! It was SO REAL, that I know that on some level HELP IS ON THE WAY. A lot of it is about not giving myself away, but I am in a business that happens to have all kinds of money dogma around it.
There is a belief that money is somehow not tied to spirit. Some people believe if you ask for money for healing work that you do not have faith that the Universe will provide. Well, the Universe DOES provide...I have more "clients" lining up every day, and as long as I let them have things for free, they will take it without asking what they can do for me. everybody is "my friend" and you don't ask your friend for money now do you? The Universe is SCREAMING at me to put a VALUE on my EXPERTISE-and I am really trying to do so. This is true of any field...are you getting what you deserve?
It can be difficult to put a price on advice, counsel, and on artwork. There are a lot of people who have money issues, and like attracts like, so since I have them, I sympathize when someone says they don't have any money, and I allow them to take my time for free. I want to share my knowledge. I LOVE what it has done for my life, and I want to help EVERYONE! I have people coming to me for help, and I have been of the belief that anyone who asks for counsel, gets it-regardless of ability to pay. This means I am spending a lot of energy on people who call me time and time again with the same problem, and nothing to offer me (except the satisfaction of soothing them for the time being.) I am finding more and more that I have spent an hour on the phone when I should have been painting, or creating a new product, or promoting my work, or being with my FAMILY! This is something that I believe that I finally have the strength to control. If you want free advice, read my blog. (oh-you already are-lol) This does not mean I don't want to help people, it just means that I am finally recognizing that all of the information that I have spent a lifetime learning has monetary value-just like any other teacher, counselor, or artist...WOW.
This week we have not only had the influence of the full moon, but a tight square between Venus and Mars...Love and War. Tension is high... and we may be feeling it in our relationship sectors. (Babboo and I actually have very harmonious Mars/Venus placements, and this week has been really great.) The ground is ready for planting, and the universe is giving us the seeds for thought. I'm sure this is why the Love/Money stuff is rearing it's ugly head-AGAIN!
So, Bloglodytes, I am asking myself-"Self, what do you want to grow, and what do you need to weed out?" I thought that I was going to go in and dig a little deeper in my closet. I'm was sure that I left some money in an old purse back there, but now that I have let some light in I see that perhaps I have actually buried my treasure in the garden...I'll be outside-digging in the dirt, pulling weeds, and planting seeds...
Get out there and GROW-LITTLE FLOWERS-GROW!!! So I can take you to Market and make some fair trades!
What have you planted this season? I might need some! Keep me posted!